I think I mentioned in my last post as to why I may not post as regular for a bit, and I think it has been about over a month now since I last posted and if anyone remembers in my “Why you should never give up on your dreams and ambitions post” I mentioned I would like to post once a week ideally. Well, I would still like to do that, but already I feel like I have failed and although I have a perfectly justified reason for it, I can’t help but beat myself up for it? Why do we do this to ourselves? We need to be kinder! So, the reason is I have actually moved house. My partner had asked me to move in with him and obviously I said yes, and this is where I have been. Now I actually had been blogging whilst starting to move but, in the end, this just wasn’t feasible, and time unfortunately wasn’t on my side, and I didn’t want to publish sloppy rushed posts, so I felt that when I’m ready, I would post again, I just didn’t want it to be as long as this before I did.
Not going to lie, despite this being something exciting, I absolutely hate moving house. Luckily though I only rented, so I didn’t have the pressure of selling too. (My partner owns his house, so it made sense for me to move in to his) I wasn’t just moving around the corner or 20minutes away though, I have actually moved over an hour and a half away. It has been a lot of trips back and forth, but eventually we got there! Still not sure how often I will be posting as in my spare time I am trying to unpack and sort things out, but I shall try my best as at least now everything is in one place. I did start getting rid of things as I was packing but in the end I just wanted to get everything packed up and thought I’d deal with clearing out when it’s at my new home and I don’t have a house to get cleared. This is probably reason why things are taking longer this side of things now I’m coming to think of it and I shouldn’t give myself such a hard time for this.
I am excited to start this new chapter of my life but at the same time it’s scary. I have moved to an area I don’t really know and have moved from everything I have known for quite some time and moved further from family, which does feel a bit strange. Luckily with my job, I work from home anyways so I’ve not had to worry about that, as I do really enjoy my job, but I am still the same difference from the offices as I was before, should I need to go in which is lucky. Everything does feel quite overwhelming at the moment though, and it’s just learning how to deal with these emotions and thoughts I am feeling. Where I lived there wasn’t much to do, so you usually travel at least an hour to do something. Now I am living near the city, so I am excited to be able to do things without having to travel ages to do them. The only thing is I do need to be more confident about driving in a city. Anyone with me on this? So many lanes and one-way systems and traffic. If only I could swap the roads from where I use to live haha. You have to compromise on these things though, don’t you? Plus, it’s something that can be sorted with repetition of doing it.
I didn’t really feel sad about leaving my home of 5 years if I’m honest. I had good times in that house don’t get me wrong, but I also had a lot of bad times and in the end it became a place where I remembered where bad moments happened in areas of the house. The move just felt like I was finally letting go. As much as I was allowed to paint as long as it was neutral colours, like many other renters, I wasn’t allowed to do much else with it. I also didn’t have much of a garden so moving into a house with a garden that isn’t shared and where I can share ideas with someone on a fairly blank canvas, as well as living with someone again, is exciting. Hopefully I can share some D.I.Y project with you on here as well, if you like that sort of thing.
I am really hoping this makes sense, as to me it looks like a random dump of thoughts, and I already have tried to write this post a bunch of times and have many drafts. I hate being a perfectionist at times, it doesn’t always work for me, and I am very hard on myself. Honestly, I thought I would have everything together right now and be unpacked but there still is a little to do. With work and other commitments, it’s just not worked out the way I thought it would, but I need to remember that progress is being made and I will get there. I think its important to also make sure you have time for yourself as well as I sometimes think its easy to forget about yourself. I hope this post isn’t sound too negative as what it reads to me. I didn’t want to sugarcoat things and pretend it’s all been smooth, because it hasn’t, I as many others find moving extremely overwhelming and even now I am still thinking of things I need to change my address with (minor things) but despite how stressful I have found it, I am very much excited for this new chapter of my life, of our lives, and I can’t wait to see what is to come.
Have you had any changes recently? I’d love to hear in the comments!